It has been so very long since I have written for public consumption. The past however long has been filled with chaos and confusion in our lives. There have been some amazing times. But the simple fact has emerged that somewhere along the line, we had dove head first off the path we set for our family. Just boom!!
We had set out to live an unusual life. We did not want to live a mainstream life. We did not want to be guided by materialism, consumerism, what other people thought, and the normal definition of success. Nope, not us. But as you can guess, that is exactly what we did. Not surprisingly, we managed to hide this fact from ourselves just super well. Woo hoo for self deception, right?
Well, the time came when the kids and I were on the verge of a nervous collapse from constant stress and more terrifyingly, my husband was have chest pains and vomiting from the stress of his job that he HAD to have to support our lifestyle. You know, the lifestyle that we never wanted in the first place but managed to have anyway. We were dying as a family and honestly, my husband was possibly just dying or at least getting ready to have a major heart attack in his 40's.
So we quit. We chucked it all in. He quit his job and started his own business. We piled up the trappings of that life we did not want and set fire to it. Figuratively, although the kids have learned to make fire with flint and for some reason fairy wings.
It has been terrifying...and beautiful... and heart wrenching...and tears in my eyes amazing.
I would like to share this part of our journey with you. I have no idea where it is going. There is very little plan. In fact, living in the here and now has been a keystone of our new life.
Nope, I have no idea where it is going but I cannot wait to see where the adventure take us.